Wednesday, November 5, 2014
up till now, nothing has really change.. everyone is still living a normal and simple life.. this makes me worrying that if, the effort i putting in it's just like a poison that slowly consume me from within. will i still be a normal person after this feeling dilute or, will i become stronger in the ressitance of constant rejection and closing up every doors to anything that is real.
i want to tell myself that, nothing can bound me down, but it's just that, i always have this strong beliefs that, all the things will be rightful when the rightful person returns. so, tell me, what state of mind am i in right now?
Someone told me this awhile ago:
The person that really you can be with and not costing your life will only appear once or twice in your whole life, you have miss your first chance, pray hard that you have your second chance again..
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
3:33:00 AM
Tuesday, October 14, 2014
something to remind myself that i've done something stupid again...
i've done my part..
now its up to you to decide..
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
4:38:00 AM
Sunday, October 12, 2014
Things that never belong to you in the first place, will never be yours in any form of effort and hardwork you put yourself through...
In your whole life, people come and go as they wish to. Never anticipate that one day, something special will happen. 90% of effort is always ruin by the mere 10% of fate.
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
3:36:00 AM
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
this messages will always remind me that, i need to be selfish more often..
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
10:44:00 PM
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
A bed for you to rest all your sorrows,
deep beneath,
No one can access it the moment you
buried down to your sleep.
You may never had the chance to love ,
As, it's all beyond the means of empathy.
you drew the line closer to your bed,
somebody please realised,
It's the Sea....
after a long long m.I.A, i think is time to come back and clear some rubbish outta my blog... it's full of dust everywhere...hahaxthis year, back into square one again.. everything is soo messy, dunno start from where to pack... ok start from the most famous one.. more famous than beckham drop his pants that news...!!new year, new resolution, throw away one (friend) which creating a ruckus in our life.. seriously, in my whole life, i never see such a thick skin people before.. Record? record your small ffat dick..up your balls man... please...you want to record tell me lah.. atleast let me prepare my voice first lah!!so chui how to give ppl listen... and why you only record the part where you piss me off to the max and i fuck around with my words? you should record from the start and let ppl listen wat a boorish person you are!!!
lets drop the famous topic that almost all the people know.. no point repeating the same thing everyday..No mood to blog again..hahahx.. see u next time...For you to see:tell me what to do god? i've been thinking abt the same thing everyday.. same old thing for 4 years!... please... 4 years is enough for me!! i don't want any of your reminisense in me anymore!!! please let me fall in love again.. please!! it's been so pain already that i can't even cry out loud...hahahax!! if you have eyes, i had already said so much please in this 4 years, can you just fullfil one of my please? just one will do because, Every single day, i've been pleading for the same please but not even one is done!!!Me:"I love you..CAN YOU LOVE ME INSTEAD? i can't even convince myself to love you."
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
11:48:00 PM
Friday, September 25, 2009
Cover your things up. It's all dirty...
One Brain cracks into two and you will see it's rotting to the core...
One word. Chef who's skills are bad have no rights to say the cooker don't works and cook charred. If you are a good chef, your customer have their own bloody taste bud to tell them that your food's nice, no need to critics on the megazine... If the cooker is bad as you say, no company would waste money to invest on this product. If that company really have no eyes to see even on their own product, how much does a critics of a bad chef worth anyway? No one will bloody stupid to listen to your craps and stuff because, your crap ain't worth anything..If you want anybody to listen to your words, don't do critics. Do hands on and improve your skills of cooking.. your cooking skill sucks and you blame that pathetic ignorant cooker who even help you cook your bloody tasteless shit don't you think is a let down to the people who likes that cooker? prove to people what you have before you go big. you don't have that big skills and you wear a high hat? it looks to me like a china contraband harry potter more than a chef...
Words that you have spitted might not worth anything in the future but, it sure affects someone around currently...
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
12:20:00 AM
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
An Expression Of The Inexpressible...
Relinquish the incantation.
Write it down into your mind.
You can't sleep now,
The crucifying ritual is starting soon.
It's been a couple of years since i really have a clear head before i sleep. Why can't i just stop all the redundant thinking and sleep peacefully? it's kinda screw up man... school already started and actually before school starts, i told myself to sleep early at night now, back to the same.. only sleep after 2.. my body is like giving me the signal that it's going to spoil soon..haha.
Actually, the kind of life i hope now is still far beyond hope.let's list it out:
Can i have enough money to go through
my daily's even not working? ans: No
Can i have enough time for me to actually go to
somewhere i longed to go? ans: No
Can i find soulmate that
understand me like you do? ans: No
Can i actually have love in my life? ans: No
Can i learn to be optimistic towards everything? ans: No
NONONONONONO... everything's NO... when can i have a yes in my life? conclusion is, i am just a lonely person..with a no life routine, no love one, no everything...Besides lonely, is there any suitable words that can i fit into my world?
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
1:28:00 AM
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Craps pouring into my head..
i can't sleep.. Pls give me some pills to sleep better.. Zzz.. To the extent that i'm using my phone to blog while tossing in bed.. Haix, have i implementing the wrong care recently? God, tell me what's the correct procedures of making friends.. I was only being kind:( ..everybody is mistaking the same thing.. Can you imagine your friend is avoiding you cox she thought you like her.. It's very annoying and disrespecting you know? I'm out here being kind and you thinks that i'm trying to be funny? If your dillusion is so serious, i think please go and see doctor.. You might be too sensitive and one more thing i want to add on.. I still love the one who kills although she's an femme fatale... After this shit talking, i still can't sleep.. Haix, if only i can turn back time...
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
11:46:00 PM
Monday, April 27, 2009
Don't Make Me Hate You...
Holding to a wounding thread..
Amidst overflowing tears
Until the tainted chapter changes to eternity..
You can't overwrite the picture of yesterday
so you're painting it black to tell yourself
That's not pain, that's the truth of love..
LoL... i'm back to my blog after soo long.. dunno why, suddenly remember the whole password of my blog...SEE, when really want to think i can think one loh...so, friends, stop saying i got selective memory loh...hahax
Ok, time to backdate some shitty life, i think my previous blog entry was 1/2 yr ago? or maybe longer... as usual, on last year september, i went to taiwan again,come back to singapore, waiting for ord...WAIT!! before i ord, some F^&king things happen to me... Do you guys believed that on NS service, you went to Clubbing can win you a Kranji Dentention Barrack Chalet stay? I am the lucky one who got the 1st prize..14days 13night... cool huh? i think the life in there makes you feel like staying six feet under loh...nevermind as this is a backdate entry, lets not touch up too much on this rubbish issue anymore..Now, i am Mr Yon.. No longer i'm CPL YON already..HAHAHAZ.. Balls to you man...
Aiya, know what? i can actually forget to sleep loh... now is 4.50am where i got to wake up 5.30am for school...hahax...cool... i can still do some backdate entry when i came back from school... byebye if theres anybody.hahax
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
4:01:00 AM
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Doth The Winged Destroyed...
zzZ... I met some problem which this is the first time happens in my whole life,BOYCOTT.Ok, this fella or should i say the Clerk that works beside me, sleeps beside me, eats beside me and shits beside me for the fucking past 1 and a half year fucking turn his back against me for some reason which is purely crap... Nvm, i am kind enough to offer to solve the problem lies between us. People who knows me should know i am a straight forward person. I don't like to have foes, anything that can be resolve i will try to resolve and so, i approach him and ask him with a well-mannered tone what's happening to him or what makes him so mad about me.. Guess what?I don't know why nowadays AH-Beng attitude people why so pussy sia... he Said: NOTHING... but behind me, he told all the people around me to stop talking to me coz i'm such a asshole, lazy-bum that only knows how to complain... LOL!!! If i'm a fucking lazy-bum which only know how to complain, i'll should have complain about him first..Honestly, have you guys met this kind of person before? Everything wants to have the biggest piece? Self-Center? Boorish? Talk as loud as an boeing behind peoples back but on the front side, he deny everything which he said and he have the fucking Balls to tell people he tolerates me for very long?Oh Man!! it's like telling people A lawyer is an honest guy... What the fuck.. I told my superior about this issue and you know what he tells me? He said: " sometimes, some human are just like Hyenas, you need to let them know where you stands if not, they will gang up and devour you''... Maybe, i shouldnt be so kind afterall...There're plenty who does'nt like HIM & loads who love HIM to bits.. This phrase finally serves me purpose. Now, dozens of peoples started to boycott me but, Now, who actually loves me? Anyone can please tell me what to do? your friend here is getting boycott and 2 weeks later he's going to taiwan with this bunch of people...Oh geez, how am i goin to spend the 3 weeks overseas with only some people to talk to? can't be everyday read books right?But one good things is now i can blog incamp already.. thanks to the 宅男 who teaches me how to bypass...Ok, going to sleep le as tomorrow, i am going to tampines early in the morning from camp for a Archery session...damn gg man.. i think from this shit place go there atleast 3hours...
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
10:19:00 PM
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Don't Hate Me. Don't Love Me... Cherish... Me.....
woo, it's blogging time!!!!
Damn suay lah... monday(210708),my camp people go pluck durians i just go and eat one ends up sick for three days... 1 durian = 3 days sick with no MC.. not worth it...
ok... need to back track to last week as last week no time to blog. aiya, blog liao also dunno got people see anot as my #1 fan also dunno go where, her own blog is in sea growing algae...
monday-friday(14-180708):
No comments for weekdays as what happy things will happen in camp?? oh ya, friday dinner i eat out with friends. sakae @ causeway point... It's buffet... Everybody eat like africa people... 10++ pm, Js came and look for me for his dinner but my supper so, js, my younger brother and me go to mai dang lao at west coast. Clock strike's midnight and it's my brother's 18th Birthday!! funny things is why he's with us but not his friends? hmm, conclusions, 宅男... No Friends ... hahax, joking joking... Abt 3am, we go home and sleep as SAt, we have a war to fight at east coast...LolX
Saturday(190708):
Wake up at 10am plus... Why every saturday morning i have to listen to that irritating SHAVER NOISE... nvm... i'll request for that (particular) person to change alarm tone... went for breakfast then i went home to bath and get change den take mrt down to orchard to meet mr. beh and fun size together with Js and one mystic person...he ps somebody that day and that fella dun wish to let his friend know he's with us...
yay, when we reach east coast straight away rain sia... lucky. No choice, we have to go and play pool first... that's when we are still in high spirit to cycling...
Not long after, rain stop. So, we walk down to the bicycle shop to rent bike and i change to roller-blade.. yahoo000. So long nv do any sport already, feel soo refreshing but about 2 hours, my back starts to pain pain already. So, i also go get myself a bicycle.. That's the start of our nightmare..
At abt 1900 hrs, we went for our dinner at the east village. This time, no SEE-HUM and oyster for our dinner.. phew... halfway through eating, rain again...-_-" dunno why that day rain so much...
abt 9+ , we finish eating and we continue to cycle... 9/10 of my hp left...
cycle to one of the beacon which they call it the lighthouse. I remember in the morning i told them that i am going up so, i decided to go up loh... When i was about few step reaching the top, WAH, you can feel it man. (The sudden chill runs down your spine) Russell Lee's favourite sentence... your balls really shrinks sia..
we continue to cycle and cycle... 7/10 of my hp left..
damn that lousy bike man.. the mystic person bike chain keep falling off until the extent the whole chain breaks... We are like siao lang cycle around looking for pliers.. 5/10 of my hp left..
sit, talk, eat at the carls jr. until reaching 12 i think.. and we begun to pour in some extra boost to our body... introducing the ROBITUSSIN...eww. damn freaking awful lah. After drinking that robitussin, instead of giving us the boost, my hp plunge to 3/10... ok... enough of cycling story...let's cut short all the way to the morning...1/10hp left.
BUt after seeing this man, my hp gone back to 2/10 :
He can eat until sleep sia... Zhai... Who wants some McGriddles with hairs and ketchup?hahahax
ok... end of the day, everybody's dying
When i reach home abt 10am sunday(200708) morning thats the first time i am so dying to sleep...hp left:
-5/10...
end of last weeks ...
but honestly, this week really not much things happen leh... in camp from monday to friday, then weekend also not much happening things... so, it's better to end my post.. bye.. will be updating on friday... oh ya.. read some jokes recently so, share it with you guys///
Peter: Doc, i'm a gay,
my 2nd elder brother is a gay,
my elder brother is also a gay...
Doctor: Is there siblings left in your
family that likes woman?
Peter: Yes. there's one.
Doctor: who?
Peter: my sister....
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One Tiring day, sam went home noticed that his wife already nicely dress up and she ask Sam to bring her to something expensive and so........
Sam brought his wife to the Petrol Station....
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Butterflies will fill the sky once again
10:59:00 PM
Monday, July 21, 2008
Zzz.. I damn overslept for more than 12 hours... should have wake up and update at yesterday 2200hrs...NOW, i have to get back into that sickening place...NO time to blog on weekend's event le... Nvm, updating ASAP as i get back home...
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
5:59:00 AM
Sunday, July 20, 2008
updating in another 10hrs time... Now all i think is my bed...
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
10:27:00 AM
Sunday, July 13, 2008
365days... It's... Agony..
Give me the strength to leave the words that"Love will find a way..."Yay, finally got time to do some blogging liew.. Too many things to do in the weekend. How i wish weekends is 5days and weekdays is only 2days..
oK.. let's skip last week's weekend..Thursday 100708:1715: Leave that sickening place and rush to Lot 1 to get something that looks like this:
BUt end up never get.1830: Rush home.2200 onwards: (Outing)...
so, basically, thursday very boring...Friday 110708:day start at 0700.0700: someone's set a shaver's like tone as alarm clock.very annoying. so, woke up very early..0830: when home and waited for mr. bay to fetch me to jurong point..meanwhile waiting, DOta...
1030: he reached. we went there for our breakfast and tADa!! fun size kid arrived..1230: accompany fun size to FaceAffair to buy some product @ tradehub and i signed up for some free gift.. hmm, didn't know i speak malay..1330: clementi KBOX..yay..1830 to 0100: after near to 5hrs of YeLL Ya, SCreAm YA, Near TO out of breath, we went separate ways for 3hrs and we reunite at JiaLiaoPang... went to bukit timah for prata after prata, went somewhere near Queenstown Remand For POOL, Went to woodland to put fun size back home...0100-0700: We suddenly got the idea of prawning so, we went to farmart to prawning. Soon after we start prawning, we realized that prawning actually was such a waste of time man.. prawn and prawn. prawn and prawn and you see JS body starting to slant left right centre with eye already closed...Mr. Bay already starting to feel bored. Me already starting to think that the prawn already sleep....RinGGG!!Times Up. End up only 7 prawns caught.. yay, we are noob... HalF way Through reaching mr. Bay's home, was stop by the police to check this and that. Waste alot of time.. I think they thought Js no licence drive car...lolx..REach home 0600 bath, wait for hair to dry, already 0700.THen Sleeep..24hrs of event...POWER..Saturday 120708:Very Do Nothing day.Wake Up already 1400.. Again, waited for Mr. bay mummy Mrs. bay to tongpang me to their house @ Jiao3Liao4Pang3... Do nothing at mr. bay house..Then we hit town.. Do nothing at taka.. Do nothing at spa.. then final destination of the day, Back to mr.bay house.. then Do nothing at mr. bay house again....-_-"see,We next time can put 12 july as a public holiday.. Do nothing Day..Sunday 130708:atleast Do something day. Lolx.suppose to wake up at 8o'clock as mr. bay is going out with his parents but we woke up at 1pm.. He kenna PS by his parents. They put him at home and sleep. He never cry... (We are grown-ups)... hahax. about 5pm when i was already at home, Gayfriend called me and Js for dinner so, we went East coast. Damn, we ordered the food like nobody business. But we only got 3people.. one big plate of Oyster omelet, one really BIGG plate of SEEHUM that don't seems can finish by 3 person. We ordered to cook for 3/4 done but end up like fully none cook...damn gross lah. like mensus sia.. one plate of hokkien mee, two plate of fried kwayteow that have SEEHUM again... lastly, 12 chicken wings.. SEEHUM, Oyster, SEEhum, Oyster... i think i already feel some great libido liao lah...lolx...You see, while we walk down the beach, people are always in pairs but we are in trio, somemore, gays... about 11pm, it's raining and so, we went home...this is my whole weekend.. Looking forward to next Sat... But now now even monday...T_T
This signboard above i think damn cock lah.. by the time you reading this instructions, that poor guy in the water should be drown by then...
guess what amuse us? One cockster rocking on top of a tree branch of the tree like siao like that...
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
11:42:00 PM
Thursday, July 3, 2008
When Blood Wash Down You, I'll Read The Last Line...
So many years, I've been searching for,What actually had Gone.Now i understand,Jealousy.GG ah~ Gg Ah~ GG aH!!Camp cannot blog liao.. now something related with XxXXx.blogspot.com cannot be access also. That makes me feel more and more fumed. Incamp, MOrning, All i do was wait for night and when night came, what i do was sleep and wait for morning And the most buay tahan thing is, my income is only gettin half of what i use to have.. thats the most painful thing that happen to me man.. As you know, $$ is now the No. 1 thing i care ever since then, i got nothing i really care for, nothing i wish to have and nothing to love.When is my next 女神 coming? i'll already waited for +/- 5 years already..ZZZ.. F*&*& It. Really makes me think to the extent that the flanks of my mind was even occupied. and i bet some shitface in some shit place are having a smirking grins on I'TS F#*king face.I had a disease for so many so many weeks, hmm, let's make it many many years, ahh, let's put it in days.1384days. Let's count for the days i'll stigma to death. it's not far... Reading love novels not really helping but to rot my minds more. Especially one GG books. it's a mistake sia... from Yaoi. If i really follow what they do in the books, i think i better go 四马路 and be a voluntary Monk forever.EEW..kk, shall update on Fri... BYeBYe..To you with love:Last week,finally i saw you.you're smiling like you use to beyour boy are still as good to you as he use to bei am standing right in front of youbut you don't seems to notice memaybe you don't recognise me anymoreinfront of youmaybe i'm just a pudgethat don't matters anymoreAs long As i knew I kept my promise...i'll live a day happier
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
12:26:00 AM
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
You Knew It..Being At The Wit's End..
yano: she was so beautiful that i wanted to make friend with her.teacher: All right. Now replace that underlined phrase with another expression that has the same meaning.yano: she was so beautiful that i wanted to.. to.. make love with her.teacher: Well.. grammatically, it isn't wrong, but..Could you come up with another phrasing?yano: FxxK Her...Bokura ga ita is soo funny lah... lolx... This few days or the past week is soo GG lah.. In camp and the worst thing is the internet terminal ban the blogger webby... So can't blog at all sia..nevermind.Today i stay home le.. 38.7c' sia.. soo long never have fever then suddenly the temperature one short all flush up to the head.. it's like so00, Erm... HIGH!! High till now i see celing spinning...lolx... i feel so hungry right now lah. lunch nv eat, dinner nv eat also...How i wish the du nan can goes off just by a day of not eating..hahax..i luv polyclinic so much man. Next time IF i'm having fever, i woun't ever step into that place again man. You will sure die in there of waiting. Not much to blog since i'm sick and stay home, i should cherish more of my sleeping time as sleeping in that big bungalow for 7 days a week is not very comfy... byebyeoh yah, happens to see this article:Ban on make-up and heelsA Malaysian city has banned Muslim womenfrom wearing bright lipstick and noisy high heels.Honestly this is perfect ownage man..Who are they to care? If i were they, i will wear a even brighter lipstick like, maybe luminous Green, look like monster but who cares? see what can they do to me..MUd GOV: you are issued a fine of Rm500 with a warning for wearing bright lipstick and high heels..lolx i bet this is how the fines looks.Flour, food, oil, now even women they also want to care. what's next?...LolxSomeone says:I always like to do things i regret.Does this sounds familiar somewhere? ok, yes, i plagiarize from fun size kid's blog.To me, this sentence we can say it sounds so understandable but yet profound at times.People always says they regret for doing what that's evitable, example, businessman will say they regret for not spending more time to do what they want to do. THey regret for using all the 1st quarter of their life study and study. 2nd to 3rd quarter of their working like a routine soo many days a week to save up a sum for their family and retirement. Last quarter of their life, they then starts to think of playing hard where they no longer have the energy to do so.. That's when they starts to regret. But, what to regret where you are already not fretting of povety,family when Cheap life like us regret for not studying hard in our 1st quarter of our life, foresee that 2nd to 3rd MAYBE even last quarter of our life working like Cow to support our family?...
Okok, i think i'm making myself confused liao.. fever can't think much lolx...Ok, if today this word regret is meant for love, i don't think fits anything in regret. Love are Love. Regrets are Regrets. If regret for breaking up or not able to love someone, No Es Amor. No. it isn't love. Love is not any form of sympathy. If regret, don't love.No. Never Will He Say...Everything Paint Over ByA Color Of SerenityIs All You'll Ever Know
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
8:07:00 PM
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Five Minutes.. I Just Need Five Minutes...
I'll kill that person if he's killing my 5 mins...5 mins to be myself. i mean it really be myself...5mins, i can cry, i really can cry...No laughs fits in my 5mins...Bo eng ah Bo eng ahhh...
Monday:
In camp till 5pm.. meet out with my gayfriend for chanting chanting... So monday, basically, not soo busy..
Tuesday:
early morning wake up go and meet that policeman for a breakfast but end up became lunch..12.00pm.. lol.. that ah tu lah... play games, nv wake me up... then 5.00pm, sing sing sing.. 8.30 pm.. met that (fun size kid) for a dinner.. dinner leh... fun size kid actually needs to eat...10.00pm, leave woodland and hits te town about 11pm.. i went to 97. a canto pub equip with live band.
(SHE"s) the birthday girl that ask me to go that day..The left one.-_-"
Ashley...-_-" the left one -_-"
We leave that place at abt 3.30am.. Reach home 4am liao...Wednesday:I do nothing and wake up abt 12pm in the afternoon, eat my breakfast and left home abt 3pm to do some personel stuff like billing, cut hair.. Damn.. talking about cut hair, my hair cut until cock man leh... dunno how long den will grow back man...Thursday:I dun wish to talk about what happens man.. In camp what thing can happen sia... In camp no time to blog...Friday:hmm, morning in camp until evening meet that fun size kid to pack her clothes coz, we have to sleepover at Mel's hse for 2 day. No clothes will Rot man.. But, seriously, the stuff i brought over abit heavy man...Eat at bt timah. pooling at bt timah. Chanting in mAcdonald at Bt timah. Go back to his house from.... Bt timah.. So, afterall, we are just in Bt timah the whole night.Saturday:8am woke up and update some news and NaNA time... 10am ate breakfast with his mom and him.. fun size kid dun wan to eat... 1++pm we leave from his house to meet jia sheng at town for shopping... I can see that fun size kid not very lively that day.. nvm, at night we suppose to play monopoly but since everybody was so tiring liao, so everybody turned in earlier that day.. But i don't think that we sleep at 4++am is early less that emo girl, she sleep really early...Sunday:11pm.. breakfast, after breakfast, monopoly and a funny game name cluedo... Sherlock Holmes rox...woo hoo... lolx.. Father's day seems not in my dictionary anymore. I never celebrates father's day for more than a 10 years already.. do you guys believe? I rather not believe... Haiz, 2 weeks weekend can no need go home liao... Forecast: 1st week, sat, sun, burn for camp. 2nd week, sat burn for camp. sun, burn for duty clerk...yay...People had been lovedWhere are my loveScream out loud and listen to the feedback
You're just silly or I put it this way
I am silly...
I should long know
I woun't be love...
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
9:29:00 PM
Saturday, June 7, 2008
I Believe In The Madness Called "Now"...
Air-stewardess : Sir,the plane is about to take off,please buckle up your sit-belt.
The Bossy Muhammad Ali : Superman needs no sit-belt.
Air-stewardess : Superman needs no Plane.
本文章纯属虚构，
如有雷同实属巧合... Lolx... like watching tv drama...Helloo, friday midnight no need to sleep again le...Tomorrow can sleep until happy loh.hahax. midnight dun sleep must be abit more crappy... Everybody, let's sing song.... Today, i want to intro a song to you all... It's abit oldie but, i find it meaningful. Teh lyrics somehow is like talking about a people too ㄍㄧㄥ bah. Some human are just too dissembling. They love to conceal everything within themself and waiting for it to explode one day.and you will notice the problem still remain.. Afterall, it's like a timed bomb you know, as the time getting closer, your shit is getting closer to the door, sweats break, stress developed and you're only be relieve until the timer stops at 0.00sec... BOOOM!! To me, Exclude $$ issue, whenever i met stress, i woun't tackle it back with stress as it will only accumulate. Sometimes is better to ease abit and be yourself and maybe tomorrow, you will find your day actually better than yesterday. 我已经一无所有
为什么你还看不透
或许你该往回走
头也不回地说
这样的明天是没有尽头
你就开始哭泣吧释放心中的哀愁
看那灰色的天空有一样的伤口
陪着我一直到世界的尽头啊
其实你无须承诺
陪着我一直到世界的尽头啊
爱总是没有理由
憔悴的你勉强的笑容
蓝色的泪水锁在你眼眸
难道你一点也不疼痛
坚定的执着
你愿意承受这所有的痛
你就开始哭泣吧释放心中的哀愁
看那灰色的天空有一样的伤口
陪着我一直到世界的尽头啊
其实你无须承诺
陪着我一直到世界的尽头啊
爱总是没有理由ok, time for my taiwan drama le... 4 hrs later have to go back camp liao...haix-_-" sob sob, another saturday gone...DAMN (WEAKend) ...byebye,,,When the clock struck at midnight,the coach turned into a pumpkin and the dress became a rug.And only a glass slipper was left behind.Suddenly Cinderella crushed it and she kicked her fu*king old stepmother outand she started for the real celebrationthat would start very soon.Will this Sounds more Non-fictional to you? ok, i'm just Bo liao...lolx
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
2:20:00 AM
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Three Things Happened Under The Rain...
Ambiguous might not be a bad things sometimes.
Clear cut sentence might not be pleasant either...
Lolx, sometimes really dunno why soo hard to get sleep at night... nvm.. Do some blogging..
Yesterday, one old old army man ask me a question,i have find it hard to answer, so, i'll just share it with you guys.. Some opinion please?
How much $$$ do you think you can eaRn after you step out to the world?
How old is the optimum age to get married?
Chim Leh... in my whole life, i didn't even plan till married sia. how he expect me to answer?
Nvm. Chin Chai pom one ans bah... To me, i'll would like to earn atleast $2500 a month bah... Coz to me, i'm single now, $2500 would be able to get an platinum card instead of my budget one now, have an $1000 per month savings and able to feed myself can le...
Hmm, about the marriage issue, maybe i'm quite picky bah, but, maybe every man thinks the same. I think best is until i have atleast a 5 digit savings then i'll consider marriage. Coz, i dun like my other half to be suffering like hell..lolx. And, the most important thing is, Both party must be bringing back income those kind coz, to me, marriage is not just some basic commitment like love you love me so simple bah... Income Is still the first support for the relationship.
kkk, enough of the shit liew.. btw, yesterday and today, Big Body Bird came looking for me... lolx. Dunno why He's in my camp..hahax, gd bye... time to sleep...
Ah ya, Got a pics From my friend facebook..
Subject is : NOwadays, children are... haiz
LOlx... HAHAx.. gdnite everyone
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
11:50:00 PM
Sunday, June 1, 2008
I was tagged by rachel to do this qns and here are the ans.1. What disappoints you the most? when someone told me i'll failed.2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket? Nepal...it's my dream. Lolx3. What's your favorite thing to do? Brew a pot of tea, sit down and read a book. Do you think is true?4. Do you think money can buy happiness? Yes. Obviously this is one of the factor to be happy.5. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be? To be a singer.6. What are you afraid to lose the most? My parents.7. If you win $1 million, What would you do? Throw all into the bank and grow interest...lolx8. What do you dream of doing in the future? refer back to qns no.5.9. List out 3 goods points of the person who tagged you. optimistic, pure and thoughtful.10. What makes you happy? To brew a pot of tea and sit down read book.Lolx.crap.11. What type of person do you hate the most? cheat, steal.12. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road? slogging like a bull.13. If you could have a superpower, what would it be? Turn Back time.14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? Dreams. That makes a person continue to move.15. If it's the end of the world, what will it be your last wish? If that's a goodbye to me, please don't make me come back.16. If you have a chance to choose, would you want to go back in time? When will it be? 2004.17. What anime character you like the most? Zaraki Kenpachi.18. Are you courageous enough to go and tell the person that you like him/her? NO. that's not courageous. that's stupidity.19. Are you happy with what you are doing now? Blogging in camp do you think is a happy thing?...-_-"20. List 1 bad thing about the person who tagged you to do these questions? Pure until became so blur.lolx
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
7:38:00 PM
Sad. An Obsolete Expression In Me...
The Problems that exist in this world can't be solve by the level of thinking that created them.
Damn, anyone PLease Smack My head!!!
How often did you guys overslept?
overslept by how long?
reason of overslept?
Let me tell you guys how long i overslept for Sat. I supposed to had been confined for Sat But, fri, i slept at ard 3 coz i thought that i can sleep the whole Sat.. GG, alarm did rang at 6, my dad did wake me up. But, why i still will lie back and sleep? When i woke up, i knew i already overslept so, i look at the time and guess what? 16:00...0.o funny rite? someone actually can overslept for 10BIG HOURS!!!! i am damn cock man... luckily i called back to camp they didn't %^&$#^ at me.
Nevermind... N81!!(blink Blink)
My father go buy himself a phone but he's current phone still working. So how? he told me this phone can wait until i finish NS then use loh.. lolx but you think can i wait?the phone abit tempting.. hahax... but honestly, i now camp life also cannot use what. let's put behind and grow some mushroom first.. KK, going back to camp le... byebye..
90% of effort are usually ruin by a mere 10% of fate.
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
6:48:00 AM
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
I Was There A Moment Ago...
People say they know me,But, Knowing the other side of me is another thing.It's a cliche,But, its True.Haix, ok, my #1 fan say i never blog about safari thing ok,i'll blog basically, really nothing much to blog wat?lolx...we reach there, leopard sleeping, tiger ran back to the hill, fishing cat don't fish. i think is because i am blind at night bah, we went in to a open area full of bats, i walk so fast coz, i really dun see anything but i did see something flew past my face. they said that i walk past a big group of bats but i really don't see leh...lolx...But nevertheless, it's fun that day.
eew, now in camp cannot go to the recreation room liew is becoz, It's infested by MUD!!!.. ever since the nasi lemak ran out from the toilet,almost every singapore NS ppl are deployed to look for that RIce.. so, some of the mud are deployed here and my (kind and Helpful) ISM lent them the room till october.. every hour we go in, there will always be some mud guarding the table each hug on to a leg. it's like 7-eleven sia, morning you go there, they are there. Afternoon you go there, They are still there and even at night, they will be there too... how to find time for us to play? I really hate'em SIA...
Er, i think i still got 2 confinement to serve. this week no need to look for me...
Lich my mind, you'll find no secret...
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
8:07:00 PM
Saturday, May 24, 2008
STab The Doll Filled With Hated...
I Belived If Time Freeze,Everything Turns Into Beauty.If Rain Stop,Tears Cleans The Scar Of Memory Away.Everything Start Wearing Fresh Colour.Every Sound Begin Playing A Heartful Melody.Jealousy Embellishes A Page Of Epic.Desire Embraced In A Dream.But My Mind Is Still In Chaos And...Yay, Weekend and i am in camp today with a guy that got charged for Attempt to Suicide.Is like What the hell lah.. What if he suddenly jump out and fly? Damn Song lah.. But compared to his confinement, i think mine actually not that much man... He one short got 28 confinement sia... i think he can move his bed and all his clothes here liao.. Can you imagine 28 weekends is how many months man? Ok, lets drop his subject liao and start a new one...
Will you really rush for MRT Early Saturday morning? If you are referring to weekdays might be true lah, everybody will slightly rush abit. Today morning this young Man huh, about age of 13-16yrs(judge by his sec sch uniform) carrying a dunno is guitar or cello thing ran up the escalator, i was standing on the left side of the escalator and he gotta gut to tell me siam sia. Honestly, even i give ways to him he also can't pass loh, he look like some kind of blind ah pek going to perform on the street with his barang barang.He almost took up the whole strech lah.. So, i politely tell him that even let him pass he might not be able to pass through as his things is too much.. Guess what he, just wanna try to squeeze through me lah, i think i accidentally step on his guitar carrier case sling or something. next thing i know is he fall on top of his guitar and PIAK!.. I feel like laughing but i manage to keep my cool...i said sorry to him and he shy shy just go away... the whole trip back to my camp on bus i keep on giggling. i think person sitting beside me also buay tahan me think i siao liao... Ok,that's all...
caciquismo signing out for TV time...
Crucify My Love If It Should Be The Way...
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
4:16:00 PM
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
God Knows, It Ain't Been Emptied...
Tears Will Follow Time And Evaporate Into Thin Air..
Sky Will Take In All And Rain It Back To Let You Know..
You're Not Alone..If i know how to use brain in the start...I still got some doubt in my mind that haunts me when i sleep. Till today, i still hate myself for not willing to step into her circle. But, heard from her friends that she's fine and still living in good terms with her new boyfriend. How I wish that was me, going to fetch her home,was me. schooling with her, was me. Sharing her Sadness with, was me... I just saw a girl recently that resemble her alot. her accents, her pure look, her specs, her everything... the love for her suddenly was so strong as if i am only in love with her just yesterday.. About her, i think i need to backtrack to what happens 4 years ago... our classroom was like one block apart of each other, one day when we just finish our recess, she and her friend just happen to pass me i took a glance at her, i know that she's just some pretty girl that just know how to study. I am right!. my best (gay)friend happen to know her friends and he told me that she is a express student in the next block 1st class.Lol, at first, i was just like, nevermind lah, go out and make friend loh... so i decided to make my first move. Target her friend's network first. it was like soo hard sia.. All her friend study and study de so, have to go for close friend and that's the first and the last time i msn chat with (Mud)-_-".. finally, she knows that i want to befriend her and she gave me her email by a small notes after school. I am so happy at that time sia. Lol, thats a miracle to see me fly home by 2pm after school sia hahax.. GG.. end up waited till night then she's online. we started intro ourself for the first time.. express people are so chim with what they are saying man...but i notice we still do share the same interest. this is the first eng album i ever purchased:
Months passes, our relationship had gone better. We talk in school everyday, we msn every night. we talk on phone as long as we have the time.. i know she just break off with her boyfriend at that time coz she hate people to lie to her so, i made a vow that i, would never lie to a friend too... at that time, she's sad. i try my best to make her happy. everytime i saw she smile because of my jokes & remarks, that makes her day and mine better..one day my (gay)friend itchy mouth made me have a chance to confess to her...
(gay)friend : if one day, he really tell you that he likes you how will you react?
(girl)S: he did'nt say anything about this issue to me before, what can i do.
(gay)friend : if?
(girl)S :hmm, wait till that day comes loh...
i am so happy at that time man. a weeks later, i was just about to tell her the next day, she msg me. A msg that changes everything. i'll patch with my boyfriend.. the scene is like a lightning strikes behind my back. she msg me again but now she's saying: i am sorry, please don't hate me for what i did. Its just that i still can't forget him. i hope you can forget me and don't wait for me anymore as i already disappoint you deeply...yay, like typical taiwan drama right? Please forget me. i am not worth your waiting and all sorts of rubbish...lol, if she can't forget him, how she expect me to forget her? that's the first time i buy myself drunk and cried over for love.Lol.. I think this will be last too...
Its been 3 years since i last seen You. As promised,now, i am living happily and still making every of my friends laugh, smile and happy whenever they are with me. Hope you kept your promised too...
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
1:57:00 PM
Sunday, May 18, 2008
The Face Buried Beneath Six Feet...
I'll Longed for the Paradise Ever since i know what's love...Hmm, let's see what's happening on this few days...
From Thursday to sat, i didn't even get a sleep... It makes me feel like a zombie. should say i looks like GaRaa... The eyes was like so dark without eye-shadow. LoL, end up missing all the outing for saturday.Kindda wasted huh?hahax...Worst thing is, saturday to Sunday, I barely sleep 2 Hours and the Garaa eyes accumulated back.. damn, i am soo tired now but i can't sleep for no reason. Someone PLease help me to get some sleep man...
Feel like LAYANG tomorrow's Chalet for some sleep man... lol... I bet they will kill me for last minute Layanging...HaHaxxx
I swear i'll never Roller-blade To and fro HDB district again...Uphill drains life.
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
8:41:00 PM
Friday, May 16, 2008
Nobody knows who I really am,
I've never felt this empty before,
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong?
We are all rowing the boat of fate,
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape,
But if we ever get lost on our way,
The waves will guide you through another day.....haix, another day of not sleeping early...wondering how to work tomorrow. nvm.. Today is friday so, no want will really care i am there anot. Yesterday, someone told me not to eat too much of cheezels but i love cheezels. he said i will be very fat after months of eating cheezels. but guess who's the one telling me this? a tidbit lover...+___+" makes no sense right?
ok let's see who will get fat after 1/2 a year...
i am having a packet of cheezels almost everyday:
...
He's having like:
And sometimes a deadly packet of :
S0, whos the one that will get fatter in the end?
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
2:43:00 AM
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
What's Sins? To me, sins are just only one and thats STEAL...You killed a man of a family and thats stealing his life from his children. You had an affair, you're stealing someone's love one. you had bullied someone, you are stealing away his pride. You lie to someone that is important to you, you are stealing away their trust. Think about it now, is there been any bad things that don't link with steal?one day,muthu had one basket of apple which have six in it, he changed it with samuel for two basket of oranges which have the same amount as a basket of apple. Total, how many apple and oranges do they get at the end of the day?
write this question out on a paper to a typical (jiu hu kia) and you will be amaze by his answer....LoLx... He told us the answer in a very assured tone , 3 ... o.O"
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
10:35:00 PM
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
The Word M Says Everything...Holds Everything...
Love are the hardest thing in the world to define...yay, owning.. i slept at 6 this morning... those rubbish everytime befall on me one loh. about 12midnight yesterday, i went to Changi Airfreight complex and fetch all the oversea stuff back loh... It's like 77 crates each labeled 100kgs but is abit look like hundred lah.Imagine 6 people can't even lift up one crates and now you can think is it 100kgs.. we have only 11 people and everybody's back and arms is still damn aching man... But nevermind, we slept the whole day till dinner time. 3 more days to friday, sappy...
It's a somber passageway that leads me down to my wishfulness again...
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
10:52:00 PM
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Nothing hurts more than realising she meant everything to you
but you meant nothing to her.
zzz, halfway sleeping suddenly awake by a Uber strong wind and rain lah... the wind can even swept open my window and the next thing i know, i am all wet...GG, i just bath and go to bed leh. Nevermind, i decided jump down my bed and see what actually happens. As i see through the window, lol.. The little Tree that the bangla just planted are rooted out from the ground.Actually, the tree not that small lah. it's about 3 to 4 metre tall... i am amaze that SG has such a strong wind. i only met this kind of wind during the taiwan trip last year when they are having typhoon season...
Hope this is not the prelude of some shit disaster...
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
4:05:00 AM
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Two And A Half Years Of Stupidity And Cowardice...
The butterfly once belongs to me, Two years later, it belongs to the sky....
haix, wat to do, wat to do? left 2 more days then can leave this sick place. doing nothing here time is like throwing every minutes into years.
anyone wants to go Nepal next years? whether i know you or not, you can join me. I am basically just looking for a companion to accompany me. All my friends i ask have no interest for Nepal which I dunno why lah... that place is full of scenaries and adorable childrens...
yaizz, yesterday i sleep, this irritating and horribly cold lizards Fall onto my leg....i am still having the (LiZARphobia) till now lah... i am happy like a bird now... Ok, that's all for today... byebye...
Butterflies will fill the sky once again
10:49:00 PM
